Posted on: Saturday, October 10, 2009
Posted at: 10:50 PM Today I asked Mummy what if I can't get to university. Initially she joked about it, saying that girls can find a rich boyfriend and get married.
After that she got serious and told me to work, and study in a night school. That's how well she knows me, 'cause she knows that I won't want to give JC life a try again.

But after thinking it through, and putting myself in that kinda scenario that she suggested, I realised that's not what I want.
What can possibly satisfy me, my need for money, and though this is really superficial, would I be able to stand how people judge me?
"Eeee she so stupid she can't even do her A levels" Serious there are people like that around.
Would I be able to stand that?

So I thought, how about poly? With all the people younger than me, will I be able to accept that?
I guess not.

They always say it's not too late, but I guess now it's really too late for me. Though it's not GAME OVER yet, it is to an extent for me.
I am in no position to blame anyone though, 'cause I only have myself to blame. For playing a fool the whole of my JC years, and still not working hard despite the end being so near.