Posted on: Monday, August 10, 2009
Posted at: 11:05 PM This is the 2nd post in like less than 2 hours.
I know what I need already. Have been thinking about it while I was bathing. I think I'm probably clearest when I'm in the toilet. Somehow the foam and the running water makes me feel fresh, intelligent, wiser, clearer.

I need a listening ear.

Everytime I go online to find someone to talk to, to find someone I can complain to. I thought I found that somebody sometimes, but I guess I was wrong.
'Cause I don't need any advices. I KNOW the advices. Everyone says that to me, and I understand. I don't need to listen to it like a spoilt recorder. All I need is to unleash my thoughts, to someone who can feel, can think. Somehow I always come to back to blogging. It's probably the closest I can get to finding that someone that I need. Alas, a blog is only a blog, a non-living thing.

I feel stuffed, like so many things are occupied inside my heart. I want to clear them, but how?

Suddenly I feel all alone.
Yes I have friends, yes I have people that love me, yes I have people who cares, but something is lacking. What is it? I've been searching for it all these while and yet I feel like I'm not even close.

Water jets are turned on.