Posted on: Friday, August 21, 2009
Posted at: 2:20 AM Unconsciously typed in blogger.com 'cause I'm feeling sorry for myself.
Then I realised I should stop blogging, for this period of time anyway. I have nothing but negative thoughts, why would I want to let my friends know about it?
I don't want people to think I'm emo nemo, but the contents in my blog just prove that I'm one. I'm not that kindof person. I know I think negatively, but in there I can still find a happy person (ironically), but now I don't seem to find it.

For now, I'll continue with my last ranting. Don't read on if you're bored of it.

I don't know why I feel like this, am I stressed up? Why stressed up? Heck I'm not even working hard.
I think I'm scared. I'm scared of being a failure (which I already am hah), being a loser, disappointing everyone.
I am all 3 now. Raising the white flag before battle begins. Before even trying.

Not everyone can find the strength to carry on. Not everyone is strong enough to withstand all these.
Not me, 'cause I'm a weakling.

Of course, I'll still carry on with studying, but with no drive to succeed anymore.
I'm sorry to all those who believed in me, who encouraged me, who thought that I could do it.
And to those who fucking look down on me, yes you proved your point. Aren't you happy now. Go sing a little merry song.

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I'll come back after 3rd dec, or earlier. Hahaha.
Or maybe, being the weakling I am, I'll succumb to blogging maybe tomorrow. Still updating my twitter though.
Till then, good luck everyone.