Posted on: Sunday, November 16, 2008
Posted at: 3:25 PM We just had a tiff.

Since the time I knew that bgr exists, I had always wanted to find someone that would take the initiative to coax me whenever I'm angry, whenever I cry.
And sad to say, time and again, I'm disappointed.
Yes, they did all the sweetest things to me, but that was only during the start of the relationship. As time goes by, every one of them, and I really mean every one, changed. They became a different person, one that isn't as gentle, as thoughtful, as sensitive anymore.

Which girl doesn't like to throw a little tantrum and hope that her boyfriend will do something nice to appease her?

This relationship had been going so perfectly well, that I thought, wow, maybe he really could be that someone

Why, I asked myself, do I seem to be the one always taking initiative? I took the initiative to call, to strike a conversation, and what? Now I have to tell him he has to coax me?
Is that what a girl wants from a relationship? Certainly not me!

I, like every other girls I believe, loves to be pampered.

So why am I apologizing for something I had not done? Why am I so stupid?

That's not what I want in a relationship. And that's not what I had expected when I first got myself into this.
People say we're sweet, but which part of this looks sweet to any of you? Is being screamed at your own boyfriend, but when you tell them, they blatantly deny, sweet? Is not letting your boyfriend know you're crying because you know that he might not do anything to stop your tears, sweet? Is wishing to be pampered for once when you're angry, sweet?
No I don't think so.

Yes, I know that there were wonderful moments.
But seriously I can't bring myself to think of that right now.

Am I being too sensitive? Or is he just too insensitive?

But at the end of the day, no matter how upset I am, or how angry he is with me, I know he's the best boyfriend I'll ever have. And I won't want another one!
Because no matter what I do, or what you do, I'll always love you.
They say not to marry someone you can live with, but someone you cannot live without. And I want you to know I cannot live without you.
I love you babyboy, and I cannot live without you. <3