Posted on: Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Posted at: 11:20 PM Night time are mean to me. That's when the feeling of loss and loneliness is the greatest.

While I was talking to WenBin about stuffs during chinese lesson today, my mind reeled back to the past 10 months or so, the time when I was still with Neng. WenBin felt that we could still work out, but how can we, when he doesn't even trust that I'd do something to salvage this relationship? How could we, when he had to ask what I did for this relationship? It's 10 solid months, not 10 days. Does it mean that what I did was not appreciated, and unknown?

And it's getting so difficult to trust people with my feelings already. What I want is not to muffle my cries with pillows, being all by myself. I want to cry, I want to scream, I want to vent all the pent up frustrations within me, but how?

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I got B4 for o level chinese, mummy and daddy are pretty disappointed, and I'm upset. Not gonna retake though, I know that no matter how hard I try for chinese I'm still gonna get a B4.
And I'm not going to waste time doing that.

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You know how stupid it is when someone tells you that you can always find that somebody when you're upset, but that somebody is totally ignoring you?
How lame.

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I have a sudden urge to hug my brothers.
Because I know that no matter what I can always lean on them, and depend on them.

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Difficult to be genuinely happy. How I admire actors and actresses.